I am postponing a blog about on-set vocabulary, because a young friend who is recovering from an aneurysm asked the title question a couple times on a recent visit. Although I am a relatively appreciative human, all things are in flux. Sunrise, sunset, balance, diet, sleep, cleanliness, inhale, exhale, the space inbetween, and the cycle of all these moments mingling. Perfectionism is a fallacy, a frustration at which to be smiled and laughed at loudly. A beautiful, temporarily, forgetful Being reminded me, we may think we make connections, words to ideas, motivation to movement. Truly, we make moments – the pinnacle Being filled with Love and Laughter.
I am grateful to have visited her in a rehabilitation center. She is so free, even to stop and explain her fear of doing less good should she continue. Through a huge joyous smile, expressing how “frustrating” and literally grasping at not being able to find the right word, she entertained the room with her shining energy of perseverance. So beautiful, always, on the outside, yet had been somehow hesitant and shy with people when participating in her passion: photography. Now, from a bed she radiates confidence and enthusiasm making each moment Perfect. Truth is, rather than this illusion we imagine- a sad magic reductionism, a mental cobweb we catch and wind ourselves up in- the deeper stuff, the sense/feeling in our guts prior to words and explanations, that is Real.
Patient, at times, frustrated, at time, calm, hot, sweet, mean, tired, jazzed, confident, afraid, self-conscious, free, as humans we contain all colors, words, and the labels they offer. As an actor, I must accentuate what is a slight aspect of myself and emphasize one streak for a role- become comfortable, justify the “rightness” of behaving in a manner “less strong” or “slutty”. To make sense and appreciate hearing a breeze dancing the leaves outside my window- and link the hieroglyphics we have created to represent this imagery = blessed. Unintentionally, I punned the young friend in parting: Keep Being Patient with Yourself. Are we not all Patients in the rehab ward for regularly re-learning Patience :)
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