Archives for the month of: July, 2012


wearing only one face.

a face,

of innocence,

for only a short amount of time.

A breath.

the first of many.

the breath that begins a journey,

the journey of life hath been born,

as another, has come to an end.

the age of innocence, now dead.

when life has departed,

to return from whence it came,

Innocence will then return,

though it should have never left.

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the ocean and the shore together for all Eternity

this is us forever and how we’ll always be

beauty and perfection they coincide

with all we share, the flow of love that is so deep inside

you’re my fallen angel with wings I cannot see

you take us high above the clouds with love that sets us free

in your eyes the stars shine bright and I can see me too

more splendid than the sunrise- we are- and I thank you


thundering with praise, lightening sings our love

rainbows smile, rain cries tears of joy from high above

true love deep within my heart- my heart and soul

every breath a smile for knowing together we are whole


I give you a love that few have ever dreamt of

Sharing our life our hearts our time

This is a dream: you and me

and I will love you eternally


you are strong- your hugs, your life, your love

nothing could break our bond- we have what few have ever dreamt of

a dream most flawless, our love is true, as real as Time

I will eternally love you- our love is majestically sublime

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Yesterday was the first day for me employing myself full-time as managing director of my dreams.  Two weeks ago, notice was provided to a (by some standards) well-paying, career oriented, “secure” paycheck employer.  Now I am available to show up with all the best energy to devote toward acting, and the prime time required for auditioning, which a day job was monopolizing.  For over six months, I have been saving and following (with what drive remains after a 45 minute commute) a well devised list of monthly goals toward this moment.

How determined I was to be the best employee I could be for someone else: this month’s goal now rests on working diligently for the artistic career of my dreams, and bringing them into waking reality.  In a quantitative manner, that means three auditions a week, propagating more than one paying gig weekly before the end of August. Yesterday, I appealed to casting directors using a smart, focused submission for their current casting projects- which included a three paragraph letter demonstrating my knowledge and interest in their prior and future work.  Today, I e-mailed newspaper editors I already established a relationship with through the goals of the last few months [Networking].   The hope is for a review/interview [Marketing] of the play I am currently performing in at the Vanderbilt Museum on Long Island ( ).

These two elements of a successful business, Networking and Marketing, are the key requirements I most need to Practice– which is the third ingredient key to achieve.  Acting, for me is the easy part because I know at the end it comes down to working hard and then letting go of it all.  The letting go can be the challenge, but one can only get to a safe point of surrendering ‘it’ to the Fates when one has worked hard enough to trust, knowing all has been done.  Nothing comes through force.  Patience, perseverance, and precision regularly return rewards.  I realize this is a marathon, rather than a sprint.  Today is but day two, and while I envision the future, today I advance my cause and submit for more auditions!

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The hardest part in acting is learning the lines.  At least, so goes the opinion of consensus.  Some actors go “off-book” before truly being so, regularly calling out “line”- slowing rehearsal- or continually toting and repeatedly pulls out from her (literal) back pocket a stack of notecards with all her lines- also causing delay. Others have photographic memories, and hence remember rapidly. However, he takes time picturing the page in his mind’s eye to recall and then read the line, therefore, are lines memorized? Occasionally actors have played the part before, recollecting lines previously secured in long term memory from that long-last performance.

For those committing lines to memory for the first time, Playhouse West School in Hollywood, California, teaches students to write all the character’s lines- sans any punctuation- and know it as you would the spelling of your name- forwards/backwards without a stress on any one letter/word in particular.  Taking this one step further, I write all the lines half a dozen times, akin to grade school rote learning of spelling words. When recording lines for auditory memorization, the school instructs only record your lines and be conscious to do it in a monotone voice to prevent an ingrained line-read.  The reason to ignore the other character when memorizing is to promote a LISTEN and respond reactiveness.  Should the other actor not have his line, you must not be waiting for a ‘cue’.  Our duty is to respond to what we hear, as if for the very first time, if a scene partner uses a word ‘desire’ when the script actually says ‘demand’ but your line is throwing the same phrase back at him – Listening and repeating the word actually used creates consistency.

If the other actor jumps ahead in the scene, or the play, you may become flustered, if you only know your cues.  Conversely, Listening (and knowing your lines by heart) gifts one with the ability to remain in character and continue flawlessly.  Remember your character’s life.  It is called ‘Play’ for good reason and we all get there, in front of an audience, via our own path.  We collaborate in love of art.