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This week past, I worked as an “Environmental Protestor” holding a sign against a emmyhairpesticide law in California for a TV show, and I play- here’s a stretch- (on another show, this one for AppleTV)- a NY pedestrian. Background performer on both, no lines, or legit screen time, but both pretty days in their own league.  I often am cast as the “crunchy” “granola” “hippie”.  It’s my look, it is, apparently, my niche.  From the Hulu show ‘The Path’ to this week’s ‘PROTECTOR of BEES!’ role,  I guess it’s clear, I am a treehugger.

Prius-driving, recycling, composting, cloth napkins, buying Mother Earth friendly (and, it turns out, the friend to our own largest organ: our skin!) soaps … and, choosing recycled paper products, all these individual choices add up.  Each IS a choice to complete the cycle through the purchase of paper products; recycle the cardboard = step 1, buy the 100% recycled paper product = step 2 (it feels like there should be a step 3 somewhere since it IS a recycling TRIangle, help me out here).  I, personally, buy ’em all: paper towels, toilet paper, tissues.  Some people cannot go for a recycled paper product to wipe the arse post-poopage.  I can.  One day, soon perhaps, I will make the switch to cloth handkerchiefs, too.  Need to research how to clean them well enough; is it possible without bleach?  Baby diaper: you GOTTA use bleach, right??

Let us/me mostly get back on topic: The NYC pedestrian gig was what is referred to as a “RUSH CALL”. Basically, usually, someone else has canceled and the casting person needs to replace her NOW to show-up on-set on-time/ASAP. My husband was set to work a specific “OVERNIGHT” and a RUSH CALL for a female was posted via email approximately a half hour before he was suppose to leave. I replied to it (usually i do not because i feel they should have booked ME in the first place, because I would Not have canceled on them… I show up… anyway) and I said I could be to the location at the exact time I knew he was suppose to report there, his call-time. Casting called, and I booked the gig.  Long story short, it ended up being a beautiful location by the water with NYC skyline view, I didn’t even end up working because they only wanted special ability dancers, AND production paid for a crepes truck to show up: “Thanks for a Crepe Week!”  I basically got paid to get some exercise by riding my bicycle with my husband, to have someone who just won an Emmy for personal hair dresser to Michelle Williams on the Fx miniseries ‘Fosse/Verdon’ make my hair look even better, to eat a delicious catered dinner, to enjoy a Friday night out with my husband eating a savory crepe . . . and getting paid.  Oh, and the “overnight” turned out to be we were riding our bicycles home before midnight.

Um, I am grateful, for many, many … many moments.  What have you, to be grateful?

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The past two years have proven … full of Love/excitement (some scary, some fun)/exhausting/infinitely hopeful.

Auditions have increased, and I have joined the stage union Actors Equity.  004-20Originally, I had solely focused on television and film, but acting in the British farce ‘Miranda’ as Lady Claire Martin, and a friend who worked on Broadway, brought me to the the realization that limiting myself to these two filmed mediums only was cutting out a whole opportunity to act.  The goal is : to act, to sustain myself financially through acting.  Stage acting can be lucrative, and certainly fulfilling, the characters robust and standing the test of Time, satisfying beyond being a background extra.

Limiting ourselves; placing restrictions on our Life’s satisfaction, ugh.  We, each of us, are deserving of happiness.  Whether we restrain possibilities of Love in a miserable relationship where we make too many unreasonable compromises to the benefit of another who consistently takes from us our energy, or in a job that depletes our creativity and passion in order to pay the bills.  Paying the bills is important.  Currently I am investing in my financial freedom by reading a digestible book called ‘InvestED’ by Danielle Town.  The stress of financial worry can wreck havoc on our health, and while I am reading a great deal more, in part thanks to a wonderful man in my life who also enjoys the delights and benefits of the exercise, if feels empowering to grow this knowledge.

Another area I have been in pursuit of more devotion: My own health.  Specifically, more dependable Yoga and Meditation practices.  Usually, I suppose, I have discovered, I can have a tendency to be an “all or nothing” mentality, a perfectionist unhappiness that accomplishes zero when five Sun Salutations or five meditative minutes is, in fact, better than none.  The Peace washes me of displeasure, fault-finding and “not enoughtist” mentality, leaving me happier, healthier, and good enough.

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This was the first week I was paid to work full-time on-set. Hugh Jackman is starring and producing a biopic of P.T. Barnum, a passion project long in the works, titled “The Greatest Showman”.  By far the best production I have ever been a part of, both because of the entertainment level of the movie and the kindness of the crew. The songs are incredible, one better than the next, written by two of the composers from award winning “LaLa Land” (Benj Pasek and Justin Paul) with splendid dance numbers (I only know the choreographer as Ashley, he is amazing!).

From the fitting a month ago, where the wardrobe department dressed me three different options, to the first day of filming this past Monday, even with a 3:30 am wake-up to begin filming at Steiner Studios in Brooklyn, I have been completely enthralled. This energized and colorful movie set in the 1860’s feels like it is going to be the Christmas blockbuster of 2017. I have never encountered such a kind and truly generous leading man as Hugh Jackman. He handed out lotto scratch off cards to the crew Friday morning, upon introduction – hugged their friends and family visiting the setup, and hired an Italian sausage food truck for the final late night of the week, too. No wonder the production feels so happy and work proceeds with ease, even on perpetual 14 hour days.

The inspiration from the beautiful, uplifting, strong songs, seeing the unrelenting happiness and work ethic of the main man, and the collaboration of many talented artists to create this masterpiece goes without compare. What a powerful way to begin this new year. Two weeks in and it is a blessing I am grateful to have experienced this motivating force of art that emboldens one to continue recent endeavors, to push for more achievements, and to dream even bigger with the belief that enough hard work, perseverance, and patience, can, and will make all dreams true. Everyone starts somewhere; everyone is inspired by someone. I am a very thankful woman; may I grow ever more so throughout the year.

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I have plants surrounding where I sit.  Basil, oregano, chard, they grow towards the light.  I turn their pots, they stretch to straighten, to lean in the other direction, always toward the source of Sunshine. Human beings can be this way, too. We gravitate toward happy people, we soak up their good vibrations.

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Personally, I know I will not call or meet with someone specifically if I know I don’t have a high frequency, am not feeling well enough to deflect or ward off their bad joujou and keep my own essence positively strong. This is important. There are enough negative energies bombarding us, from the outside world, and even more so sometimes from the inside. The self-defeating thoughts our brains can torment and torture us with is as bad as cutting or bulimia. Moving, stretching ourselves toward the inner Light we are all capable of creating is powerfully rewarding.

This year has thrown a lot of intimate, terrible yuck at my heart, and this has made my head exceedingly defeatist. I certainly wished for the pain to stop, sobbing and begging many times to no avail. Sleep eluded/eludes me, still, though this has gotten better with daily exercise again (when I am focused and allow life to be the imperfection it must) and a natural stress-free sleep combo from the Whole Foods Market. Sleep and exercise, dormancy and challenge, these are what makes Life.

A lot of accomplishments have occurred, too, though those are not as easy to dwell upon, but they can be. I learned I can memorize well and quickly, thus that is no longer a fear. I was shown I can audition and get a callback, when I go and have Fun, because Fun is part of the Light, and everyone wants to be comfortably warm and smiling. I laughed at myself, and still do, with many others also laughing at themselves and the challenge of learning choreography. To be challenged is part of living. All beings yearn and strive to be whole, to be well, this is our natural homeostasis, to grow and be healthy and shining with confident eudaemonia.

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Moments of inspiration, respiration, perspiration, they come in and out of life.  When a person is born, we celebrate.  When a person dies, we mourn.  A celebration

of the life they shared with us and the world is a productive, optimistic, motivating choice. I wholly empathize, and cry hard, to the point of nausea, when a close loved one croaks.  All that morose feelings, though, is for me, my regrets for not seeing them that one last time, hurt I did not soak up every opportunity with them because my “life”, and appointments, and commitments got in my own way. Excuses.

Our loved ones know we love them, they know this because we spent loving time and shared deep unexplainable connections, over countless moments together. To have regrets, the pain is deep. A pain unalterable, all we can do is allow, and let go. How easy it is, two simple, short words, to say: Let go, of all we wish had happened, would happen. How brief this life is, and how peaceful we can choose to breathe. Or to heave, with sobbing thrusts, when all is truly out of our little control. Control, like time, and money, are, in fact, illusions. Death commands: Relinquish.

This year has proven a grand reminder, to live in this moment, this present before me NOW. To breathe deeply, in and out, to seek ways to calm myself and care for this little being, channeling the most energetic essence, that is me. Many times, folks have told me I have to take care of myself, and those too are easy, valuable words. Figuring out HOW to care for myself, when life has thrown much seriousness to deal with onto the playing board, I try to … PLAY. As a wooer of words, I adore looking up synonyms. My favorite for months has been

PLAYFUL [adj] funny, fun-loving: coltish, flirtatious, frisky, jaunty, jesting, jocund, mirthful, rollicking, snappy, vivacious, whimsical, and zippy.

Simply typing these words has spanned a smile wide across my face. May mirth rollick into you day in many ways.  It’s all worthy.

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This Monday 10/10 I am enthralled to be a guest on BBox internet radio!  Have a listen from 1-3pm EST!!

Last week, I attended an open meeting with a commercial agent at the actor’s union (SAG-AFTRA) office. As a Meisner trained actor, I am confident stating listening is a strength of mine. screen-shot-2016-09-24-at-2-06-11-pmCommercials, however, while they may involve listening or reacting to another actor or situation, are more likely to be a monologue. In every situation an actor must bring herself to the material, let it flow through without pushing, relax, have fun, and ultimately play!

The ‘Casting Access’ opportunity stipulated “bring 30 seconds of commercial copy”, your headshot and resume, oh, and it is not advised to wear flip-flops. They really have to say that; maybe it’s for the L.A. folks. This was to be my very first foray into commercials. Of all the classes in which I have invested, from improv to auditioning for the camera, I now shake my head that so potentially lucrative a field as commercials was overlooked. Commercial acting is … acting, but it is also specific in its technique, and thanks to the Q&A with the agent, there is now a serious value for years of thorough improv training.

Google [personally I utilize blackle.com] knows everything, and with a quickness I found an ice cream commercial that felt right for me, “my type”, the young mom, shall we say. I worked on memorizing it, and the day came for my very first commercial audition, albeit for a commercial agent. As far as I could feel, it went exceedingly well. He was very positive with his feedback, remarking he could see me recalling the memory like we do in real life (the cogs turning so-to-speak), I was warm and brought my organic essence; I felt like I had nailed it. Then, I had to let it go. Doing fantastic makes one levitate with ecstatic satisfaction- you feel validated, like “yeah, I am very good”. In the end, though, in every aspect of life, we have to let it go, move on, because after we do whatever it is we do, there is the next moment in life, and holding on to the past stifles the future.

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One day last week two people, at independent times, asked me if I “went to work today” or stated with a tone of accusation “you don’t work every day do you?!”  NewsFlash: I Do in fact Work *every* day- I work for Katrina Perkins, Inc.  Simply because I may not leave the home office space to work on-set, just because I may not have an appointment, interview, or audition to prepare for and get to, every single day I am still (shocking!) working: follow-ups, marketing, and yes, even networking. These are only a few of the elements that must be built up and combined in order to get to and enjoy the fun bits I work to increase: moments to actually act.

To limit “work” to what is defined by leaving/going to an office is a misconception of those who work for others. Rather than investing their best energy toward achieving their own dreams and putting words to what they might silently wish to achieve, many people slave as an employee for another- to achieve the goals of someone else, and miss out on knowing what is required to work, and be successful, for oneself. There is banking, contracts, emails (writing takes time people! To craft these words!?!), memorizing, researching and reaching out to connect with new people and create the potential for future possible opportunities. If I were to not make phone calls and send emails, to reach out to make new relationships, how would my business grow?

I took offense to the tone of accusation, and this, I realize represents an aspect within myself that because I reacted to it, there is some actual issue for me. Being my own Boss is hard. Staying focused and motivated and figuring out what the heck to do day by day- these are the tribulations of *successfully* working for oneself. I am responsible for wins, and the opposite side of that coin, I am also at fault when the business seems to have plateaued. Brainstorming at the rise of each day has become a focused productive solution. Consistency is a concept still to be mastered.

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regarding the previous post :  YouTube

I am that woman who holds onto a bottle of-who-knows-how-many-too-many-years-old clear nail polish top coat, because the bottle is still more than half full.  Worry nevermore over a cost (though be it well deserved, much needed, self-pampering time) of more Self-manicures, an easy removal from the list of worry.  It comes down to time.  Many matters do.  At the end of the year I find myself more motivated to take my time (does that even make the slightest sense?), and accomplish, somehow, even more.  Focused.  Busy year, quite full of thanks.  List making (aside from the mental ones to keep track of worrying) is a brilliant start to a day.  Consistency creates ease.  Dirty, dirty… chaos, must naturally create the opposite, dis-ease.  And then, and then, and then, another year begins. Perhaps I continue to persevere the day after day of working this Business of Show. And perhaps I overcome having postcards addressed to huge casting director stamped:

RETURN TO SENDER

NOT DELIVERABLE AS ADDRESSED

UNABLE TO FORWARD

Boo!  How does one circumnavigate this hurdle into getting in front of someone in this casting director’s office. Sometimes I feel so nervous auditioning. I get in my own way. Recently I had an experience where I realize this is one of my grandest hurdle. Anxiety. How has this happened to me? I may be the best in the class, but without being in class to work out, I feel less confident going into an audition. I think I just struck on to something. Ok. So classes? Paying for classes is not something for which I am budgeted. No yoga classes. No dance classes.  no stunt training.  no jujitsu.  No acting classes.  But, “I just struck on to something”, and classes certainly eased this anxiety that I suddenly find bear hugging me. What is a woman to do? Part time job for classes? Then how much time am I committing to instead of time spend to grow this incorporation?  To attend classes, at least two days each week. Leaving only five days each week to hope for multiple days to work as an extra, oh grand aspirations one hopes to achieve!  AKA a form of Networking, that happens to pay a little.  Ok. Where there is a will there is a way.  Where? Let us move on to that question perhaps now and we’ll tackle the other one next. Lively New year; the time is now 7:24 in the East Coast USAIMG_0112

 

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I am postponing a blog about on-set vocabulary, because a young friend who is recovering from an aneurysm asked the title question a couple times on a recent visit. Although I am a relatively appreciative human, all things are in flux.  Sunrise, sunset, balance, diet, sleep, cleanliness, inhale, exhale, the space inbetween, and the cycle of all these moments mingling.  Perfectionism is a fallacy, a frustration at which to be smiled and laughed at loudly.  A beautiful, temporarily, forgetful Being reminded me, we may think we make connections, words to ideas, motivation to movement.  Truly, we make moments – the pinnacle Being filled with Love and Laughter.

I am grateful to have visited her in a rehabilitation center.  She is so free, even to stop and explain her fear of doing less good should she continue.  Through a huge joyous smile, expressing how “frustrating” and literally grasping at not being able to find the right word, she entertained the room with her shining energy of perseverance.  So beautiful, always, on the outside, yet had been somehow hesitant and shy with people when participating in her passion: photography.  Now, from a bed she radiates confidence and enthusiasm making each moment Perfect.  Truth is, rather than this illusion we imagine- a sad magic reductionism, a mental cobweb we catch and wind ourselves up in- the deeper stuff, the sense/feeling in our guts prior to words and explanations, that is Real.

Patient, at times, frustrated, at time, calm, hot, sweet, mean, tired, jazzed, confident, afraid, self-conscious, free, as humans we contain all colors, words, and the labels they offer.  As an actor, I must accentuate what is a slight aspect of myself and emphasize one streak for a role- become comfortable, justify the “rightness” of behaving in a manner “less strong” or “slutty”.  To make sense and appreciate hearing a breeze dancing the leaves outside my window- and link the hieroglyphics we have created to represent this imagery = blessed.  Unintentionally, I punned the young friend in parting: Keep Being Patient with Yourself.  Are we not all Patients in the rehab ward for regularly re-learning Patience 🙂

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Katrina Perkins. . . You Love with Love.  A dear friend, who happens to live across the globe, and whom I have yet set eyes on in person, sent me a most thoughtfully artistic gift.  As ‘pen pals’ we communicate through this delightful invention termed “The Internet”.  He consistently brings me laughter and smiles with his blog BlueFishWay and we have a running callback of having breakfast together each morning- a goal I hope one day to realize in the flesh!

In this life that is all too brief, one leaf on a tree in a forrest but for a season, it delights me much to have found friends who believe and support creative efforts.  It is a pleasure to applaud them, as well. We each have a voice, and this is recently reminded to me as I am in the midst of listening to a powerful audiobook, for perhaps the second or third time, “The War of Art” by S. Pressfield.  It is important to remember that the act of creating is selfLess The actor/writer/photographer creates to serve The Muse.  So many strive to create, to bring life and inspiration through art and its platform to bring clarity and beauty into the life of another human. Write the stories You want to read and watch . . . this is what occurred to me when viewing a movie I had once, in another chapter of my life, enjoyed.

Still I feasted visually on the location: Ireland.  However, the trite pursuit of a woman to wed, left me rolling my eyes skyward, and wishing for more stories of Women of Courage.  Throughout history many strong females existed, at the forefront of change and perseverance – Pocahontas, Debra Sampson, Elizabeth Blackwell, Annie Oakley, Annie Sullivan, and Amelia Earhart – are a mere half dozen.  This comes on the heals of a one woman play I am currently rehearsing which features these daring and brave women. Respected, admired, and inspired by true actions, these are the traits I seek in a Hero – someone to love.  Courage is a twinkle, a star that makes others smile and breathe deeply.  Thank you, to all who inspire themselves, fore YOU inspire me!

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